I won't give up

I drove across town today to get a map of the US because we've discovered that they don't teach the kids states anymore in school. Natalie is home today because it's her Wednesday off from kindergarten. Benjamin's starting to feel better now that he got antibiotics for his sinus infection but we needed to get out of the house for a bit so I took them to lunch at a chinese place across town. As we drove back from the teacher supply store this song came on the radio. For obvious reasons it could easily be my motto now. It made me teary. 

Last night was tough there were tears and frustration as Tim and I try to muddle our way through what Ben has maybe learned this year and what we have left to teach him. I found out our learning plan was due in today. I only learned yesterday how to go about it and didn't get a login until 4pm. Right now it seems overwhelming, because the more we ask the more realize he didn't learn as much as he should have this year. We get the feeling that they are only teaching these kids to pass the standardized testing they give in the state and it makes us furious. How can they do this to our kids? It makes us pause and think, we really can't do any worse on our own can we?

Yesterday, Tim found out he will have to travel for 2 weeks next month. As we sat here last night and he told me about the vitamins he'd ordered yesterday to help his blood pressure that is apparently on the rise, I started laughing. I thought one of the "old people" on our amazon account had ordered something to our address by accident and went in and cancelled the order. Opps! We both just laughed because let's face it if you don't laugh you'll cry.

We don't feel alone, as we've been offered a lot of support these past couple weeks. If anything we've felt blessed by the encouragement and offers of help. It means more than you know. "I won't give up. . . even if the times get rough."

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[Gramma Barb]

You will do fine! Don't make me pull out my commitment speech I used on my girls growning up. . .haven't used it for a while but pretty sure I can remember it as I used it quite often when they were growing up! Ha! I am sure you will have days when you question why you even started this. But just take a moment and look at your child. . it will become very clear I guarantee! Change is always difficult and you are going against everything our society tells you to do. I truly believe public schools are lacking in some things and in other things they are just fine. They were not giving your child what you thought was important to get through life so you are taking on this challenge on your own. There is nothing wrong with that! Take each day at a time, don't look back and keep going forward. This is a good thing and you will succeed! Love ya!